I recovered

I guess I needed the rude awakening. I got busy and made my doctor's appointments for my mammogram and bone density exams and for a repeat PAP cause I had a questionable one last time. I have had them before so I may be on the way to another colposcopy exam. Anyway, I also found a new dentist and have already been to have my teeth cleaned. The Mammo, etc, is tomorrow.

I bought a Wii and WiiFit so I could exercise at home. I did good for 3 days and then it was a Saturday so I didn't interrupt Jay's morning by doing my exercises. Sunday morning came and it was off to church. Monday came and there was no reason other than I didn't want to get out of bed. I am such a creature of no habit, no routine, no ambition, no perseverance, no focus and no goals. That about wraps me up. I do OK when I have had some successes. I recently got shot down really bad at a time when my energy level was pretty low and it has been hard to rebound. I have had to work to try to shed some very hard words that came my way and I'm really not there yet. That experience invades my thoughts daily, and especially when I am trying to sleep. It has left me with a spirit of resentment that is pretty hard to shake. While I have prayed to be able to forgive it's hard to forget.

Today I'm back on the WiiFit board, gained back a couple of pounds, but it's that kind of weight that can come and go in a day so I'm not discouraged. To be truthful I weigh more now than I have ever weighed in my life. It's pretty hard to admit and to take but I have to keep it all in perspective. I know too much to be fatalistic, but it taking a toll on my body. So I really have to take it one day at a time.

I'm working on some quilting and sewing projects - some Christmas and birthday gifts for family members. I'm tired of working outdoors. Leaf fall is on it's way and soon we will be inundated. The deck will get covered, so soon I will have to rearrange things so it will not be impossible to deal with. A little prevention is needed. So, today is already successful since I got up, exercised, ate breakfast, mended my exercise pants and blogged. And it's only 1:10 p.m. Now, brush teeth, take pills and do more sewing.